COLOR ME HAPPY

Finally went out last night...joined the world and for once it was outside of Arlington...damn I think that is what made me the most excited. Yeah we went to Sherlocks in Addison...even though there is one across the street from me, but the band that we both love (Diane and I) was playing out there...she is having surgery this week so she would have missed them playing at ours....ANYWAY

We packed our bearings and headed out to Addison...which my goodness...isn't really in tin-buck-too, it's only 30 minutes away...I met up with my Rogelio...my boy...I haven't seen him in over a year and that was my second motivation to go. I had the dancing bug before I left the apartment...hell, I've had the dancing bug for awhile now...and let me tell you, it was really hard sitting there and not dancing...but guilty as charged...I wound up getting out there for 3 songs...but I was on good behavior other than that.

We met a couple of boys...Diane had the straight boy and me as always had the gay boy...but it was okay...he is actually quite fabulous. Ro left before the ugly lights came on and we said that we would most definitely be coming back to Addison, so I can not wait for next time. I miss him so much...and any reason for me to get the HELL out of Arlington...I am game!!

So....I had strange dreams last night...surprise, surprise. I was going to a halloween party with Diane but before we got there she had told me that she knew the reason why Lukas never talks to me or never seemed to care...I asked her why and she started crying...I was like, okay maybe the two of them have their own little romping thing going on...which okay, whatever...and she said no, that he hated me, never did like me, said he thought I would never be anything to him but a common shop girl he was just being nice because he wasn't an asshole...lol...and she said that he was also pissed off because I had knocked off something in his car from when he drove me home and I never fixed it or offered...but he never told me anything like that so I had no idea what she was talking about...my goodness was she upset...sobbing so hard...she said that she didn't want to hurt my feelings but she knew that I needed to know because of how I felt about him...all this information while we are walking into a party...lol

We walk into this auditorium and everyone's costumes were real...people were drinking this small cap size liquid that transformed them into who or what they wanted to be...it was very strange and mind blowing...we walk into the auditorium and all these people were sitting in the seats and I noticed Lukas sitting there with his ex-girlfriend, as I walked passed him I tripped and fell and he did nothing. All my friends from high school were there and some ex-work people as well...then I woke up.

I love having slap you in the face dreams like that...lol...I've booted him from my brain so it doesn't matter anymore. He's just another boy from work, move on.

Sadey pissed on the carpet again this morning...I don't understand why she is doing this and quite frankly it is really pissing me off.

I had another harsh glass breaking reality check happen last night...but I can't write about it because I promised that I would pretend that I didn't know...but damnit...I need to get my ass to Virginia...it's been 7 years and I still love him...it's time.

Happy Sunday.