LONG AWAITED UPDATE

So I am out at my mom and David's house, sitting in their sweltering hot ass garage b/c I fear that my nails clanking on the keyboard will wake everyone up. They have wireless now so I am able to bring my computer out here and get things done.

I have blogged several mundane ramblings but will not pierce your eyes with the boredom...so thank me now. I've posted a dream below that I feel needs to be shared b/c seriously I have no clue where this shit comes from.

As most of you know I am unemployed now...since the 6th of August...and let me tell you it sucks. The insomnia monster is really loving this one let me tell ya. I try to go to bed at a decent time, sometimes I take something and sometimes I wing it...but 3-4am still rolls around to being my nap time, then noon, then the cycle repeats itself. So I come out here to get some things done, or just to have company or to have food in my greatly growing belly...and since they usually go to sleep around 830-9 and wake up around 4am...I get quite bored and even more sleep depraved...I'm not complaining by any means, I love the company, but I really want to sleep.

I have applied to 12 jobs so far and not one bite. I'm still waiting on my unemployment money to roll in and my severance package. Money really needs to start rolling in b/c that is what is really needed. All my bills are due right now and I don't have a cent to pay them. But that's okay, I am remaining calm and patient...I can't control this situation so no need on cashing in any anxiety tokens.

I have started tinkering with my second book...I'm playing around with the characters right now...I'm not going to dive in like I did with my last one...and as far as that one goes...for those who have read it...well one of you actually...it is being put on hold right now. I know, I know...but seriously, I need a break. They are driving me mad.

I've been watching Dawson's Creek...I'm almost done with Season 5...it's not bad. There have been several moments where I have wanted to shoot Dawson between his eyes and suffocate Joey with a pillow, but I love Pacey...Joshua Jackson...mad crush on him...somehow makes it all worth while, that and it suffices my boredom. I can't wait for my net to get turned back on.

So I was watching How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days, but paused it to blog. I am sure most of you have forgotten about this...I am sure Liam still checks it frequently. I miss you bunches Liam. Looks like I will be missing you next year as well...one of these days our paths will cross hon!!

So it's 10:30 now...it's really hot in here so I will exit for now. I'll try to be more frequent with my posts.

I love you guys and miss you very much!!!
xoxo

OH and let me just clarify a premature ejaculation of words about that certain new queer eyed boy that I met...yeah...I retract every word.

I'm still wondering where have all the good men gone???