DREAM TIME THEATER

The last couple of nights I have been dreaming some strange coocoo stuff...which isn't uncommon for me. I sometimes can't wait to go to sleep so I can dream.

I have boycotted my medications b/c I felt my mind was being altered...he put me on a new drug, one that I have taken before but I started to have high anxiety and well Friday morning I had one of the worst panic attacks that I have had in years!!! So I stopped taking everything for awhile. Last night I took some tylenol PM b/c I had a headache and didn't want to stay up all night...once again my body was feeling all tweekie but I'm here to write about my dreams...not my insanity.

This is the dream from early Sunday morning:

Part of it took place in Melissa's complex (haha sorry dear)...none of you were there, frankly I have no idea who I was with, but in my dream I was very familiar with them. I was with a young girl (possibly in her late teens early twenties) it was close to summer and there was an event being held at the complex. Everyone was cooking out, hanging out by the pool. At one point me and this girl were walking back to the room to get something and I noticed some strange sounds as we passed one of the apt doors. I can't even describe it to you...it was almost bone chilling.

We both noticed it but ignored it, we almost made it to her door when we overheard the maintenance guy and some other skeezie guy talking...they were saying 'if he comes out of it, we are all going to be in a lot of trouble'...'should we warn the others'...'I don't want to be responsible for the body count'.

She grabbed a hold of my arm and we walked back to the apartment that we heard all the noise in...quietly as we could we peeked through the window. It looked like a storage shed on the inside, it was dark and cluttered...there was a cot (so it seemed) hanging from the wall. Someone asleep, there feet closest to us...we were trying to see who it was, there was a sound of something falling and we ducked from the window, when we peeked back through the window, the head of the body was up staring at us and it was Jason from Friday the 13th....HAHAHAHHAHA....yeah...talk about pissing in your pants....then the dream shifted.

Now I was still in the previous dream but a huge blackout made me forget everything in between. I was by myself now, scared, trying to run away. I was standing in middle of an intersection that forked off into thee different over passes that intertwined. It had been raining outside, the streets were wet, I was trying to figure out the best way possible to leave and to avoid taking the highest bridge b/c I am petrified of heights, especially when I am driving.

Next thing I know a bus from the middle one slid off the road, crashed through the wall onto the bottom one, cars were falling everywhere...I was still standing in the road, trying not to get hit...everything had stopped, the one that went over my head, as if an earthquake had hit, rose up and fell, the sides of the bridge were lined with glass...and what seemed to be trashcans full of water all fell down around me...I crouched as low as I could not to get hurt once again, when I opened my eyes...everything was fine. I had a premonition...it never happened.

So three times I attempted to take the best way as to avoid the accidents...and after the third one I couldn't remember which one was the right one to take...now the time had come for the actual accident to take place.

I took the wrong way...but this time I had a young daughter and my husband was also there, but far away from me. I have no idea why we weren't in a car...insane...The bus had fallen, the glass had shattered, all these cars were falling down around us and we were about to be crushed. I took her in my arms and I jumped off the side of the bridge to land in the water below...but as our feet left the ground there was a helicopter coming right for us...it had been hit by one of the falling cars...I heard him scream to me, throw her to me, it's the only way....so I did and the blades barely missed me...as I hit the water I struggled to get back to the top, once I broke the water all I heard was her screaming 'mom'....and I woke up....

Pretty strange huh!! Now that is without taking anything....I had another dream after that but it really is irrelevant. I woke up at 4am and was scared to go back to sleep...Fucking Jason...I swear when I was growing up I always dreamt about Freddy and Jason...only Freddy was my protector and Jason wanted to kill me...hahaha

Now to the dream that I had last night...tehe...

Gotta love Marilyn Manson...or at least I love it when I dream about him because it is always a dream worth having!!

I was going to the hospital for my pre-op but the doctors and the nurses had no idea what was going on...I wasn't in a hospital I was in my elementary school...lol...I don't remember a lot now b/c I should have written it down as soon as I woke up...but I was in one of the classrooms laying down on a mat, with everyone else around me...it was nap time...and Manson was with the someone else...the boy that was sharing the mat next to me...everyone had fallen asleep but the two of us. I was hardly breathing b/c he was there...and actually paying attention to me...it got a little x-rated but neither one of us took our clothes off...he did things to me that I never thought were possible...hahaha...but that was about the time that Sadey started to wake me up b/c she was hungry...typical.

So, now it's after noon and I am home...trying to figure out what to do for the rest of the day. It's raining outside...I slept longer than I thought b/c of the darkness from outside. I feel like writing today so I might revise my book. No worries, I'm not going to delete anything...I have banned myself from the delete and backspace button!!! I just need to separate everything into chapters.

Happy Monday!!!