THE WATCHER

So I just got done watching The Watcher and the first time that I watched this movie it knocked me back into the fear of living alone. (I think I'm the only living person who finds Keanu remotely sexy) I've been living on my own since I was 19 or 20...excusing the year that I lived with Neil b/c that was erased from my memory...but the way Keanu's character stalks his victims just scared me to the core...I started checking the closets again, under my bed, behind the shower curtain...anywhere I could possibly check. It's been about 5 or 6 years since I had seen it and watched it again today...and thought how retarded is this movie!!! I mean yeah it's possible that it could happen considering all the deranged assholes in this world, but seriously...when the cops catch a killer like they do in the movies, why don't they do it in a much more discreet manner? I mean seriously...this guy turns his cell phone off so he can be tracked...next thing you know the helicopters are swarming the building with the lights brighter than the sun...guys running around breaking down walls...I just don't get it. They need to be a little more nonchalant in my opinion.

Then I started thinking about actual serial killers in our time. None that I can really recall remembering hearing on the news or reading in the papers. It's like the movies glamorize it....but of course....how else would they make their money? I just wish that one of these days they will make a movie that is more truth in nature when it comes to the topic...really scare the shit out of people because it IS real...especially to the women who fall for those dumb assholes who eventually tie you up and leave you in the basement. Am I making any sense here? Or have I really just cocooned myself into over analyzing things that don't need to be? I don't know...haha...maybe I need to find a job that oversees peoples thoughts and ideas when it comes to writing such nonsense for the movies.

I could write a book about a serial killer...but I never have because I am afraid that if I do then I feel I would be just as deranged as the ones that have actually existed, if that makes any sense what so ever. I think I need to lay off of the codeine!!

SO SO VERY SAD!!!

Well it is for me anyway...Tori plays this weekend and I am forced to miss it...blah...so I am posting some videos.

Tori Amos - Icicle (Live)

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I know some people thinks she is depressing...but I always feel better after listening to her...I don't know...there is just something about her voice that calms me. And trust me, not all of her songs are slow...just posting my favorites.

Tori Amos - Cooling (live)

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OKAY...HAHA...I'M DONE.

I'LL BE A SON OF A BITCH!!!

I knew that they were making Sweeney Todd into a movie, but I thought they would do like they always do when they make musicals into movies...they cut all the singing...well not this time. Johnny is actually singing...where the hell have I been? I use to know every step that he took...I used to follow his life to the very second...that is until James came into my life...I can't wait for this movie to come out. I'm posting the trailer...but if you are interested, there is a youtube video with him singing Joana.

THIS ONE IS FOR UREE...

All this talk about crotches has gotten me all hot and bothered...LOL...I'm awake now after having an extremely morbid dream with me only asleep for 2 1/2 hours...I was trying to find that scene from Before Night Falls with Johnny spread eagle touching one of his finest body parts and I found something better...hmmmm...I loved this movie and I still say that he looks damn good in drag even if he does look like a two bit whore!!!



If you haven't seen this movie, RENT IT or BUY IT....it will definitely be worth your money!!!

OLD SCHOOL DAYS

All I have to say is that I was innocent back in the day and sincere when I thought that I looked HOT in these glasses....but seriously, somebody should have told me otherwise!!!!



And another one.....




So my sweet dear Amy posted some pictures up on her myspace of us and some of our friends from the summer of 93....my god it brings back some great memories!!!

Chris (left) and Brandon (right)



Brandon was the first boy that I loved...god I miss him. Well, I miss the guy back in 93...don't really know who he is now but he will always be that Brandon to me!!!

Me and Amy...I love this girl!!! I've known her since I was in grade school. She will always be my girl!!!

CRAZY DREAMS!!!

I have always battled with strange sleeping patterns, especially when I don't work on a day to day basis...and my dreams alone have always been a crazy part of my life. Now, this one isn't the strangest one that I have ever had, but it did postpone me from going back to bed...hence the reason why I am awake at 348am drinking coffee....yikes!!!

Okay...so I went to bed pretty early, fell asleep on my back, which in my current state is a NO NO....I woke up at one point and and my eyes glanced on the tellie...there were dead people sitting on a couch...sort of like a picture slide show...it jolted me a bit...it scared the shit out of me, by the time my eyes actually opened I noticed that it was the end of Everybody Loves Raymond b/c the credits were playing...I quickly changed the channel and went back to sleep...I am for sure that I was dreaming...but it still freaked me out a bit

Okay...I always enjoy it when I have dreams about Johnny or Marilyn b/c they rarely happen and when they do, I fucking love it...but last night I was in my own little warped interpretation of Queer As Folk...

Hal Sparks and I were roommates...and yes I had my solid hook in Gale Harold.....Gale was in the bed room, I had gotten up to get something to drink and ran into Hal going to the bathroom. He was throwing the idea around on going to get something to eat. We had all gone out to the club that night and he was hungry. So, we were standing in the hallway and he starts to interrogate me about how things were going between me and Gale. And you guys that watch the show, you know that look that Hal always gets on his face...even when he is angry...his eyes get all squinty and he tends to look like a 3 year old sitting on santa's lap....so anyway....I was trying to explain to him that dating Gale wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. Because he is Brian fucking Kenny and people expect him to be with Justin, He didn't seem to understand b/c that was a character, but in my dream it really wasn't. He was Brian Kenny.

I was telling him that we had to act like strangers out in public so we wouldn't be hissed at...that the only time we could be out in our relationship was either at the club or at home. Hal still didn't understand...so I had to spell it out....I was woman, not a gay man...and in their social circle...that was a huge no no...then Gale comes out of the bedroom with, of course, nothing on...*sighs*...Hal is trying to avoid the southern regions of his body...he puts his arm around me, kisses me and states that he is fucking hungry.

So we go to IHOP...there are only two tables that were preoccupied, which was a huge relief on me b/c I was tired of people yelling at me...b/c he was no longer with Justin....So, the three of us sit at a table and Gale is reading the menu...I can't seem to think about food b/c he is just so damn gorgeous. All of a sudden this woman sits at our table and starts to talk to me. She begins to boast about how she is such a huge fan of the show and she couldn't believe that she was in the same room with Gale and Hal. Hal of course was appreciative but Gale (Brian) really didn't give a rat's ass...he ignored her....every once in awhile I noticed him glance over his menu to give her a piss off look....the waitress comes to get our order and to bring us coffee. The lady gets up and moves in between me and Gale....out of no where she turns into this crazy psychotic bitch...she starts threatening me....saying how dare I come between him and Justin. Hal kept telling Gale to do something...but he didn't...it got to the point where she started to pull my hair and when she went for the knife, Gale nonchalantly puts the menu down, and pins her head on the table with a chair...demanding (in a calm way) that she needed to chill the fuck out...that Justin was gone and I was there to stay, if she had a problem with that than she needed to 'go the fuck home'. I was shocked, as well as Hal, because he admitted in public that we were together, despite what everyone else thought.....

Then I woke up b/c my toes were numb........................hahahahha.

I know it's pretty stupid, not one of my best dreams...I haven't even watched QAF in over two weeks...so not sure where it even came from...I hope it was a clear description. It doesn't matter, I just wanted to write it down before I forgot about it.

I DIDN'T CRY!!

I've been talking about this for quite some time now....me cutting my hair....well, I finally did it yesterday. I am donating my cut off ponytail to locks of love . I've been wanting to go short for some time now, but this gave me my initial push. I will never go long again. That mangy shit was getting on my nerves, it was damn near down to my ass. I hadn't completely decided on dying it until it was cut and I saw the silver hair that was on my head. Now, I knew that I had a crap load of gray hair...duh...but I had NO idea that it was THAT silver. So yeah, it was pretty, but not for a 31 year old. So anyway, here is a pic that I took of myself this morning as I rolled out of the bed. Not flattering, I know...but you guys know how lovely I am....hahahaha....enjoy!!!

NEVER DOUBT AN OLD CAT!!!

So, earlier today I was looking for my heating pad and started to dig through my closet where I keep all my empty boxes...later on, after I found it I got all snugly in my chair and noticed that Sadey was standing in a shoe box which is, less face it, way too small for her old ass to fit in...




So she sits there for quite a while then she turns around just a bit, trying to figure out how she can manage to get comfortable....




You will have to forgive my camera b/c it is a piece of shit...so the focus is off and she may be a little blurry...but yes that is my big ole cat stuffed sleeping in the little shoe box...



And then I wake her up, you can tell by the flash in her eyes...





I laughed my ass off b/c I didn't think she could pull this one off!!! Forgive my messy apartment!!!